It's been awhile. I know you haven't heard from me for some time now and I haven't been returning your calls. You keep coming by my house and leaving your number on my door, like I've forgotten it. I haven't. I see you everywhere still. On my way to work or at the mall. Sometimes I'll see you with someone else and think of all the great moments we've shared. Heck, maybe I'm even a little a little jealous. We've gotten to know each other so well over the years that it feels like I should be with you still. I know I left abruptly. I know your probably confused about why I left in the first place. It's because you're no good for me Pizza. You can't give me what I need to be strong and happy. I know, I know, so many times have I told you how much joy you bring me. But don't you see Pizza? That's just a temporary feeling that passes so quick. Then what? An instant feeling of shame and 3-4 days where I can't even think straight. This awful feeling in the pit of my stomach just keeps me from doing what I need to grow. You have held me back for too long and frankly, I've moved on. I've found better company. I been seeing fitness now for awhile. Things have been good. We butt heads a bit but it's really been making me a better version of me. And I just know I can't have you in my life like I once did. I'm sure we'll run into each other again. We can still be friends and maybe get together a little bit sometime. Anyway, I've seen you on the television a lot lately. Looks like your doing real well for yourself. I'm happy for you. Take care of yourself Pizza.